Update and Tee Shirt Sale!!!

NEW UPDATE!! (May 2011)

We have been given a FURTHER extension to sell our Wild Olive tee shirts for our adoption! YAY!!! 


Check it out with the button to the right!
Wild Olive tees has put many new wonderful tee shirts into the adoption fundraising section!!


Be sure to mention our family code when you place your order: SHAW0305


Happy shopping!!


Great news!!! Our fundraiser has been given 4 more weeks!! You can order shirts until April 30th!!!  Mother's day, Easter and birthdays are all GREAT occasions to purchase these shirts for the women in your lives! Please help us bring home our precious littles from Uganda!!!

Many people have asked us how it's going so I thought I'd give a quick update and introduce our new fundraiser.

We have completed our home study...ALMOST! (I can't wait to just say it's done!) In Ohio, the document we are waiting on to complete the study takes up to 4 months. Each state has it's own pace, Texas gets it done in 1-2 days!! We have been waiting on this since the end of November. It should arrive in our mailbox any day now! You'll probably hear my shouts of joy when it arrives!

Once we have our home study completed, signed by the necessary people and sent to our agency, we will then begin the application with the United States Immigration. Then we wait for another two months while those papers are processing.

Key word: Wait!

In the meantime we have some time to raise the necessary funds for the next step. We are about 1/2 way there and would love your help, if you would like to become part of the story. Here's what's next:

Our friends at Wild Olive have opened a family fundraising account for us! We have FOUR WEEKS to sell as many tees as possible (see below for the fun patterns to choose from!)

If we sell more than 50, we will earn more per shirt! If you would like to help out our adoption fund, please consider buying for yourself...and then think about Mother's Day, birthday gifts, Easter gifts (the Hope shirt!). If your are connected to a church, will you consider inviting the youth group to "get their verse on" too?

We have 4 weeks to make our sales and it starts---TOMORROW! March 5 - April 2, 2011. Take a gander below at the creative tees to choose from:

Front of tee

back of tee

Available in brown and pink or black and green!

Front of tee

Back of tee

! Important Note: While Wild Olive has other items for sale, only these three designs qualify for our adoption fundraiser. When checking out, please enter our family code: SHAW0305. Without this code, we will not receive any credit for the purchase. It is not a discount code but rather a tracking code for sales. !


Click here to shop for tee shirts. (You can always use the sidebar widget as well.)


We look forward to updating you with the good news from our last fundraiser! Thanks to each of you for your loving support! Someday soon the world orphan population will be reduced by two and the Shaw family will have increased by two! :)

Wishing you blessings!

She surpassed her goal!!!!

I am so very very pleased to report that Jensi's earring project far exceeded her  goal!! If you missed this project, check out the second to last day of the Love Strand Challenge or just click here.

Jensi's goal was to send TWO flocks of chickens to impoverished families living in Africa. She spent 2 years raising chickens herself for 4H projects. She was thumbing through Samaritan's Purse Gift Catalog at Christmastime and got the idea to raise money to send chickens. She got so excited to think of all the ways that a flock could help a family: they could have fresh eggs, they could hatch new chicks and sell them, they could butcher the chickens for meat as well as use their manure for fertilizer for their fields.

After all the money was counted and earrings delivered, we were thrilled to realize she sold enough earrings to send EIGHT flocks of chickens to needy families!!!! WOOOOO HOOOOOO!!!

Here's to good ideas, young kids and awesome organizations who facilitate such practical ways of helping!!!

Till the Cows Come Home

You might be wondering what's next...cause today

the cow came home!

Yes, literally.

And of course, left a little something behind...

ewwwww!

People often ask me when they hear we have chickens,
"I thought you lived in town?"

We do.

That makes this all the more exciting doesn't it?
;)

This little guy was born just earlier today, March 1st!

He had to be convinced to eat!

The  warmest he'd been all day!

Learning to stand!

DQ checks out the newborn....

Delight!!

Zora "welcomes" the little guy!

Happy farmer daddy!


Perhaps next week:

Pigs fly!

Love Strand 28/28 The Final Entry...

It was quiet.

TOO QUIET.

And this is where I found her...

This child--how dearly I love her--tests my patience hourly. She is the busiest little person I have ever known. Her antics often make me stress out (call the pediatrician!) or just pull out my hair (get down from there!). Sometimes I'm just grossed out, like the time she found a discarded straw and proceeded to use it in the toilet water (pleeeeeease tell me the last person flushed!!) Oh me oh my!

This time I burst out laughing!

Her older sister had not finished drinking her chocolate Shakeology. DQ climbed up onto the table and dumped it. She made a lovely rainbow shape with the palm of her hand and proceeded to delight in ingesting the wholesome goodness. She wasn't sure if she was in hot water or if Mommy was okay with this, but after my camera got clicking she realized it must be okay. 

Not just okay...it's GOOD for you!!

If you aren't familiar with Shakeology, it's an amazing meal replacement shake made with whole foods that contain no synthetic ingredients or chemicals. Brian and I drink it daily and love it. Our kids beg us for it, so when we give it them it's a real treat! DQ is a smart cookie and made good on the little leftover in Anneli's cup! So cute, isn't she? :)

Here's the Shakeology button if you want to learn more:

Love Strand 27/28 (Jensi's Earring Project)

Jensi had the idea MONTHS ago.  Make earrings to sell and take the money and buy a flock of chickens to give to an impoverished family in Africa. She was inspired by the Samaritan's Purse gift catalog that came out at Christmas time. I encouraged her idea.

She met with her principal, planned, made several failed attempts to make an earring that would be an adequate representation of the Pettisville Blackbird. We went to visit a scrapbooking friend, tried many many different prototypes that just didn't cut the mustard. Finally, thanks to a dear friend Ms. Becky, we have a final product.

GO BLACKBIRDS!

So today's Love Strand picture celebrates Jensi's hard work. It was LOVE that motivated her to come up with a desirable product to raise money for what she could see would help these families. It was  LOVE that cares for her OWN chickens out back--feeding, watering, gathering eggs--that caused her to see the value that a flock of chickens could be to a down and out family trapped in the cycle of poverty.

It was LOVE that didn't give up when she was totally discouraged after yet ANOTHER idea didn't pan out. It was LOVE that focused on the end goal and kept on trying. It was LOVE that motivated her to get up and speak in front of 4 classes of 5th and 6th graders to share with them her project. And it will be with great LOVE that she will send that money to people she has never met, providing the means for them to earn a perpetual living.

I am so proud of her. 

Life after Losing a Child

Everyone has pain.

Not everyone heals and shines afterwards. So, what is the difference? How can some come through life-altering tragedies with a song in their heart and a spring in their step while others are broken, bitter and angry for life?

The depth of the pain, the reality of the experience, and the joy of the healing--it's all REAL. And I want to tell you about it.

After our first child died (Anneli's twin, Timothy, at 22 weeks gestation) I recognized the need to walk through grief. I had been given the name and telephone number of a woman who had also lost a twin child while still pregnant and proceeded to give live birth to the second twin. I dialed the number and listened as this woman recounted her story. Our losses were similar. But something was different...she was the most bitter person I had ever come into contact with.

"How can I not be bitter?" I asked myself and God. The biggest thing I learned from this woman was that I didn't want to be like her.

Shortly before I became pregnant with the twins I had read and prayed a verse from I Corinthians chapter 3. It talks about building up on your foundation of Jesus. It says,

"If anyone builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, their work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each person's work." verses 12-13

I noted how gold, silver and costly stones were not readily available. But that wood, hay and straw were. Anyone could just go for a walk and pick up those latter three for free along the way. It is much harder to acquire gold, silver and costly stones. They aren't just lying around for the taking! This makes them precious.

So I prayed that I would have a faith full of

gold

silver

and costly stones.

And then my dream of twins came crashing to a tragic end. He was gone. There was nothing we could do but watch his body get smaller and smaller on every subsequent ultrasound. It was painful, of course, but for a girl who'd prayed to have twins since childhood, it was pure torture.

This bitter woman showing me what I could potentially look like two years down the road. I didn't want to be like her. Enter the verse from Isaiah...

I will give you the treasures of darkness, 

riches stored in secret places,

so that you may know that I am the Lord,

the God of Israel, who summons you by name.

                                             Isaiah 45:3

I realized that those costly stones were the very same "treasures of darkness" and that they were as good as "riches stored in secret places." If I wanted to have faith that was marked of such things as gold, silver and costly stones, then I needed to go digging. Digging/mining into the tragedy God allowed into my life.

I truly believe that God has gifts for us in our tragedies. No one will escape pain in life. It's true. Jesus said so!  I went after those gifts hidden in the darkness of tragedy as if my life depended upon it. For me, this meant reading books about others' losses, crying extensively, journaling, writing poetry and talking with trusted friends.

Each time we lost a child, I learned more. By the time of Oskar's homegoing, I was a well experienced griever. I already had hammered through the question, "Why is this happening to me if God is good?" and I knew He was with me. Because of my prior experience in grief, I got to skip through some of the initial stages.

Grief is a cyclical process. You can study the different stages of it, but you will realize that they do not come to you in any particular order. And once they've gone, this doesn't mean they won't be back. But here's what I found encouraging: each time the same stage revisited me, I was different. Greater amounts of gold had been added to my foundation. I was newly equipped with what it took to rise to the next level in the cycle. Like a winding staircase that keeps passing "north," my grief had been here before, but felt a little different. I was a little different. I saw change. I saw growth in myself and this was encouraging.

If you are going through something painful in your life, what are you doing with your grief? Are you choosing to chew on it like a cow chews its cud? Are you letting bitterness fester in your heart? Are you slamming the door on your faith because you cannot fathom how God could let this happen to you?

I cry out to you: come in your pain to Jesus.

He is bigger than you, and therefore He does not need to explain His choices to you. This is so hard for us, because we rest on our logic. We have this thing for needing to understand. But sometimes, in the economy of God, we simply cannot. Give that "right" over.

He is more loving than you can possibly imagine, whether or not you believe this. His love is so deep and long and wide and high that no angel or demon or sin or tragedy can divide, pull, remove or dissolve God's love for us. (see Romans 8:38-39)

As crazy as it may seem against the backdrop of your tragedy, God has a plan for your life.

Listen to these sweet words from Isaiah chapter 35:

Water will gush forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert.

The burning sand will become a pool

the thirsty ground bubbling springs.

In the haunts where jackals once lay,

grass and reeds and papyrus will grow.

I love that!! In the very place where your pain now resides, God will redeem it with good things. Has He given my babies back to me from the dead? No. Has He given me another set of twins? Not yet. But He has done something beautiful--

"To all who mourn in Israel, He will give a crown of BEAUTY for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair." Isaiah 61:3

Delight in the hope and promise from this Scripture from Psalm 126:5-6 as well:

Those who plant in tears will harvest with SHOUTS OF JOY. Those who went off with HEAVY HEARTS will come home LAUGHING, with ARMLOADS OF BLESSING." 

Come view your tragedy as an opportunity. An invitation for you to come and mine in the secret places. This is off the beaten path. It's a place that not all will dare to go. But you will. You will not allow this tragedy to crush you. You will NOT allow this wound to mar you so that you permanently limp.

Not everyone will emerge with deepened faith. 

But some do. Will you?

Why that's "Mom's Hearty Bread!"

Today I tried a new recipe. From my fun new book I got for Christmas called

  Kneadlessly Simple by Nancy Baggett

(I often wonder if she went into bread because of her name, or if this just not THE perfect pen name for a baker?) The title of the bread is "Brown and Wild Rice Crunch Bread" from page 150. That's not what it was called at the table tonight--when asked Daddy answered in his best cowpoke drawl, 

"Why, that's called Mom's Hearty Bread!!"

We all just loved it! I think you'll like it too, if you are into healthy eating.

This book is not written for the already-amazing baker or the run-through-the-drive-thru-eater because these recipes are probably too simple for the expert and way too time consuming for the person who wants the immediate loaf. But for me, it's been just about right.

I thought I'd share this recipe tonight because we all chowed down on it. I served it with a green salad and some beans/canned tomatoes/ham/onion in my crockpot meal that I made early today. (That needs a name!) If you are mildly patient and enjoy the thrill of presenting your own version of food-love at the table, then give this loaf a try. (And tell me about it later. :))

brown and wild rice crunch bread
[My experience is written like this!]

"Note that because brown rice is used uncooked, it must be ground into a flour for this recipe. Either a blender or clean coffee or spice grinder will work; [I used my Magic Bullet] a food processor blade isn't thin enough for the job. The mixture should end up mostly powdery, but for a little crunch, leave some particles the size of corn grits. (Larger bits will be too hard on the teeth.) Due to its popcorn-like aroma and flavor, brown basmati rice is especially appealing in this bread, but any variety of long-grain brown rice will do."

1 1/4 c whole wheat flour, plus more as needed

1 1/4 c unbleached white bread flour

1/2 c uncooked, unseasoned long-grain brown rice and
wild rice blend (or just brown rice), ground fairly fine after measuring

1 Tbs granulated sugar

1 generous tsp table salt

3/4 tsp instant, fast-rising or bread machine yeast

1 Tbs oil (flavorless like corn, canola or vegetable)
and more for brushing the top

1 1/3 c ice water, more if needed

FIRST RISE: In a large bowl, throroughly stir together the whole wheat and bread flour, ground rice, sugar, salt and yeast. In another bowl, whisk the oil into the water. Vigorously stir the mixture into the bowl with the flours, scraping down the sides and mixing until well blended and smooth. If the ingredients are too dry to mix together, gradually add in just enough more ice water to facilitate mixing; don't over-moisten as the dough should be stiff. If necessary, add in more whole wheat flour to stiffen it. Brush or spray top with oil. Tightly cover bowl with plastic wrap. If desired, for best flavor or convenience, refrigerate 3-10 hours. Then let rise at cool room temperature 18-24 hours.

SECOND RISE: Vigorously stir the dough, adding more whole wheat flour if needed to stiffen it, then carefully scrape down the sides. Using a well-oiled spatula, fold the dough in towards the center, working all the way around the bowl. Invert the dough into a generously oiled 8 1/2 x 4 1/2 inch loaf pan. Brush or spray the dough top with oil. Smooth and press out the dough with well-oiled fingertips so it evenly fills the pan and is smooth on top. [Oops, didn't do this!] Using a well-oiled serrated knife, make 5 or 6 evenly spaced 1/4" deep crosswise slashes along the top of the loaf. Cover the pan with non-stick coated plastic wrap.

Let rise using any of these methods: For a 2-3 hour regular rise, let stand at warm room temperature [hard to do in Ohio February!]; for a 1 1/2 - 2 1/2 hour accelerated rise [this is me!] let stand in a turned off microwave along with 1 cup of boiling water; or for an extended rise, refrigerate 4-24 hours, then set out at room temperature. Continue the rise until the dough nears the plastic, then remove it and let the dough rise until 1 inch above the pan rim. [I couldn't wait any longer! Hence my shorter loaf!]

Baking Preliminaries: 15 minutes before baking time, put a rack in lower third of the oven; preheat to 400 degrees F.

Baking: Bake on the lower rack for 35-45 minutes, or until the top is well browned. Continue baking for 15-20 munutes more, covering to prevent over-browning, until a skewer inserted in the thickets part comes out with just a few particles clinging to the bottom portion (or the center registers 206-208 degrees F on instant read thermometer.) Then bake 5-10 minutes more to be sure the center is done. [Yeah, I didn't do that. Bell rang, I forgot, came running and pulled it out later. It was great!] Cool the pan on a wire rack for 10 minutes. Then turn out the loaf onto the rack and cool for at least 15 minutes before serving. [You already know I didn't do that either. We sat down and ate it up!!]

Serving and Storing: The loaf slices best when cool, but the bread is good served warm [Yes it is!!] or at room temperature. Cool completely before storing airtight in plastic or foil. Keeps at room temperature for 3 days, and may be frozen, airtight, for up to 2 months.

Love Strand 26/28

You may not need my commentary for this one...but I'll offer it anyway.

Jensi had it in her head to have bangs cut. I gave her all the reasons not to do it (enter Mommish voice, "It'll take YEARS for those to ever grow back out!"), but she really really wanted them...so we looked at some pictures, talked about bang care (insert laugh here) and we got busy.

She is thrilled!!

 I think she looks grown up.

*sigh* 

I guess that's what this age is all about--her exploration, learning to navigate, me learning to merely guide. Someday she's going to take the reigns and completely drive away...and I'll be okay with that...I think.

Love Strand 25/28

True story:  DQ was running up to the fish and kissing the side of the tank. SO CUTE! Could I catch this with the camera?

Of course not.

But I did get some of these instead! Enjoy!

Hoodie Giveaway!!!

Everybody likes free things...but everybody loves AWESOME free things!!! My friends over at Wild Olive are giving away five free hoodies with a fun original design that illustrates a FAVORITE verse of mine:

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

                                                                         Romans 12:2

Go here and read the rules to get IN on something so cool as this!!!

Love Strand 24/28

Due to the weather, the kids had a THREE hour delay today! What did they do? They made a pretend horse and had fun for hours with their make believe riding...each had their own horse and had a variety of locations for their stables--the bathtub, the closet, etc. 

So now we don't have to buy them a horse, right? They can just keep using the kitchen bench, blankets, pillows as saddles and belts for the reigns? Oh good. The bench doesn't cost a penny to board. (No pun intended!!)

Love Strand 23/28

Today I was just looking around for symbols of love--the heart. I mentioned it to Jensi and she immediately made a hand-heart and said, "like this?" I love that kid!!

a prayer

Oh God, my God. 

You search and You know me. 

My future is laid out before you, there are no secrets. 

                             You see all, 

                                              You know all, 

                                                                               You hold all.

Nothing that takes me by surprise takes you by surprise. 

You hold my future in your hands.

I see your HANDPRINTS all over my life 

                                                                                                          ...and I glory in them.

You ask me to step out into the unknown

to walk where I've never gone before

and it's scary, God.

(so so scary!!)

But You make PROMISES to me,

Promises that I BELIEVE and will cling to.

May fear fall away as I step forward into the unknown

                     Shaking, 

                                               Weak

                                                                     ...but made STRONG

                                                                          by You living in me.

Project Hopeful logo used with permission.

Love Strand 22/28

Zora. Wonderdog. Truly.

Love Strand 21/28

If it seems to YOU that my kids have been sick ALL WEEKEND then you are right! This is the 2nd day of just holding DQ. See those red fever cheeks? Oh, melt my heart.

I do my best to keep on my workout regimen...in spite of what may happen. (Up all last night medicating and later bathing DQ, dealing with Oliver's snotty issues...and Brian even had to go take care of electrical issues at work from 11 pm till 5 am and then turn around and go back at 7 am!) When I don't get up first thing and tackle my workout...it hangs over my head all day. Today, I at least got the ab part of my workout in! And with an added 25 pound weight, you can bet it WORKED!!

Oliver just woke up from a 3 1/2 hour nap. (WOW.) Anneli claims he was hibernating. DQ ran to hug him when he reappeared. (Meds had kicked in nicely by then!) Oliver said in his just-woke-up-voice, "I think I know why she's hugging me! She missed me during my nap!" :)

I sure love these kids.

I can't help adding a bonus pic from today. Before I got down on the floor to begin my workout, DQ was content being snuggled by Jensi. The three sisters just were TOO CUTE to not show you!

Love Strand 20/28

The snow melted, briefly. It was glorious! I wanted so desperately to nap that afternoon after two nights of being up with his little sister...but he begged me to play outside.

"Will you play baseball with me, Mommy?"

I mean, how do you say no to that? This is probably why this sweet child came down with the fever virus a day later!! But fun was had!! :) What's the price of a memory, anyway?

Love Strand 19/28

This weekend has been tough. Different kids getting sick with the same virus at different times. It feels like hanging around and watching movies is ALL WE DID. But there IS joy in those snuggles!

God uses movies to MOVE ME!

Sometimes you watch a clip and it will merely tug at your heart, but sometimes it will change your life. God has a history with me of using movies to direct His path for me. See here for the first time God did such a thing. I must say that when I saw this video just now, I had just warmed up my coffee and settled in on my couch, opening up my laptop to give the 9 1/2 minutes to see this clip.

Shortly thereafter I glanced away from the screen and my surroundings filled my eyes: the flat screen TV in its cabinet, framed pictures of our children on the walls, the stained glass window in our stairwell.

I spit out my coffee, broken by wracks of sobbing.

Something is not right with this unbalanced world. I sit here warm on an icy cold day, sipping coffee in the luxury of my secure home and these children...well, just watch the film.



These verses just seem right to add after watching this:

"He [Jesus] replied, Blessed rather are those who hear the Word of God and obey it." Luke 11:28


"For it is not those who hear the law who are righteous in God's sight, but it is those who obey the law who will be declared righteous." Romans 2:13 

Perhaps another translation will speak more clearly to your heart:

"Merely hearing God's law is a waste of your time if you don't do what He commands. Doing, not hearing, is what makes the difference with God." Romans 2:13 from The Message

Again, I pray that we will not merely be hearers of the Word, but doers.

And if you're like me, you are hoping that there's more to Sam and Esther and big sister Jane's story. There is! I found it for you: watch the follow up.

So I conclude with a question and I ask it of me but also of YOU:

Now, what will I DO now that I've heard?

Don't be puzzled, just show up!

If you think you are too small to make a difference,

try spending the night in a closed room with a mosquito.

--AFRICAN SAYING

One of my favorite books is The Hole in Our Gospel by Richard Stearns. I not only got to enjoy reading it, but I got to study it with a fabulous group of women. (I love you, Water Girls!!) One of his final analogies in one of the last chapters really resonated with me. He titles the chapter, "How Many Loaves Do You Have?"

You see the point is not the immensity of the world's problems, although he spends a good half of the near 300 page book exploring the depth of the world's hunger, lack of clean water, disease and poverty issues. The point is that we, as individuals changed by the power of Christ, can make a difference. Just like the little boy who donated his lunch to feed the 5,000 on that hillside when the Great Galilean Teacher told his disciples, "you give them something to eat." Certainly there had to be other little boys whose mothers had the foresight to pack them a sack lunch, but Jesus worked through just one little boy's lunch.

I want to be that little boy giving my lunch.

It's not that the little boy was a hero, no, all eyes in the story are on Jesus. Jesus got the glory. But it had to be a great thrill for that sweet little boy who gave his 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish and watched it get multiplied, passed out to so many and then gathered up in 12 LEFTOVER BASKETS when it was all over. Did he thrill, "Wow! That was my lunch! God used my stuff!" I bet so.

You see, the thought here is not that you must create a great master plan of how to solve world hunger, or become a millionaire to fund a huge well project by yourself, but you simply show up.

I love this:

 We might imagine that God's vision for our world is like a great jigsaw puzzle. You and I are the pieces in His hand, and He places them in just the spots where our particular shapes, sizes, and patterns best fit with the other pieces. The full picture only takes shape as all of the pieces come together in their proper places. In this view, no single piece is insignificant. Have you ever completed a puzzle only to find that one or two piece were missing? I have, and the missing pieces compelled me to pull the cushions out of the couch, lift the tables and chairs, and scour the room to find them. Those mislaid pieces made a huge difference to the outcome. They were obviously not insignificant. (p. 250-251)

Stearn continues...

God has created each of us with a unique contribution to make to our world and our times. No other person has our same abilities, motivations, network of friends and relationships, perspectives, ideas, or experiences. When we, like misplaced puzzle pieces, fail to show up, the overall picture is diminished. (p.251)

So, what if everyone else but YOU decided to show up for their part in the cosmic plan? Perhaps you feel that you are untalented, too uneducated, your past is too dark or your heart is just simply too selfish? You'd remain sitting there while others volunteered themselves to the plan of God.

What would the overall picture look like then, if you stubbornly sat out...holding onto your fear, your self hatred, or maybe your own ideas that you knew better? The picture would suffer. It's just not the same without you. 

Where is that missing piece?!?!

Stearn finishes his puzzle analogy:

One of the most common mistakes we can make is to beleive that we have nothing of significance to offer--that we're not rich enough, smart enough, skilled enough, or spiritual enough to make much difference at all, especially  in the face of huge global problems...Deluded, we sit on the bench watching the game from a distance, content to let others play. But the very good news for those of us who want to follow Christ and be part of God's plan for our world is that he uses what we have to offer, no matter how unimportant we think it might be. (p. 251)

Recently my parents bought a 1,000 piece puzzle. My dad said it was one of the hardest puzzles they had ever attempted. What made them absolutely crazy at the end was that after 999 pieces were successfully put into place, the 1,000th piece was incorrect. It didn't match the puzzle. It had the wrong colors, wrong shape and was a huge disappointment! My dad took the puzzle back to the store saying incredulously, "This puzzle is wrong! Something must have gone wrong at the manufacturer!" The clerk probably was a bit skeptical of my dad's story, even inquiring if the puzzle was sealed when he bought it.

What is so comforting is that God's plan for the world will not get messed up at the manufacturer. You are precisely the perfect piece He wants to use. You need not worry that you are not enough, that you only have 5 little loaves and 2 measely fish---this is about God's plan here, and He wants to bless your socks off by letting you participate. Don't miss it--just show up!

That's better!

Love Strand 18/28

Cannot express to you how MUCH I love them!!!!

Love Strand 17/28

Love Strand 16/28

Tonight was the Awana Grand Prix. A fun night for all of us as we root for our favorite cars and friends...and enjoy the company of one another. Love is many things--a great winning attitude whether you win or lose, kindness to a sister, cheering for everyone. But there was one adoring look from father to daughter that stole my heart tonight.

The Blessing of Fundraising

So, we've now been at this fundraising for about 6 weeks. I've learned a few things and I wanted to share them with you.

Fundraising, although a bit intimidating, is a blessing. Why? Because it gives me the opportunity to teach others about adoption. If we could just pull $40K out of our back pockets and pay for it, we might not be as verbal as we are about our process. As it is though, we need help. We need the people of God to come alongside us and partake in the story. We need your prayers and your encouragement. Our adoption becomes a gift to not just our family and our future kids, but also to those who choose to involve themselves in it. They have great joy as they see our thermometer rise. Can you imagine the joy they will share when they see us in the same photograph with our newly ransomed children? Oh! It makes my heart race with excitement!

Adoption is expensive. Okay, we ALL knew that before I ever wrote it. To many, it might be viewed as a road block...but to others, it's simply a sign that God is in it. If YOU are considering adoption but are intimidated by the cost...don't be. Not because the cost isn't great, but because it's God's heart to place the lonely in families. (Psalm 68:5&6) His heart is FOR the orphans. They are His beloved children. He will see to it that the money is provided. Many times, He wants you to take the step of faith first. Will you trust Him?

The money that is needed to pay for the agency, fingerprints, documents, home study, training, visas and passports, flights over and back,  court and lawyer fees is WORTH IT. You know it's true: if your child was kidnapped, you'd pay anything to get them back. This is ransom. In adoption, we are ransoming our children from poverty and disease and a life as an orphan. We imitate God Himself in this act because Jesus gave His life as a ransom--bringing us back not from the arms of a kidnapper or from the grip of poverty but from sin itself!

A few people have asked me if our adoption agency was encouraging us to fundraise. The answer is yes. They made some recommendations of other groups to partner with (one being Just Love Coffee--click the coffee beans in the side bar to check it out.) Our agency is one of the lower priced agencies...trying to make adoption the most affordable possible. They are incredibly helpful and insightful to us in this process. They understand the state that families are in when they apply to adopt.

Maybe the coolest thing about all of this is that as I obey, I end up encouraging other people. Others watch us do this and realize that if we can do it, so can they. Wow! What a joy it has been to receive letters from people who say, "You may not realize it, but you are influencing us. Because you have taken this step of faith, we have seen your obedience and realized that we can too." Amazing. Fundraising forces us to be in the open with this...and who knows how many other orphans will be given homes because of it!

So at this writing, we have raised less than $4,000 of our needed $40,000. I have no doubt that God will show up in big ways and provide it. I know that I will need to sacrifice, cut back and do my part...but that in that process He will continue to draw me to Himself and help me learn to rely on Him for EVERYTHING. That's really what it's about anyway.

"Stay joined to Me, and I will stay joined to you. Just as a branch cannot produce fruit unless it stays joined to the vine, you cannot produce fruit unless you stay joined to Me."                      
                                                                                                                                  John 15:4

Love Strand 15/28

She's really quite good! :)

Love Strand 14/28

I admit it, I didn't take a picture on Valentine's day! Plan A was to take our camera on our date and get a shot of us dining out--ALONE!  (I totally forgot the camera!) So, enter plan B. I liked how this turned out anyway! :)

A Day of Love!...but why love on ORPHANS?

This clip says it better than I ever could.

Love Strand 13/28

A family Valentine celebration! Today we had a special meal complete with Valentine's day cupcakes! A special thank you to my mother in law who for 3 years running has provided us with a Valentine's party in a bag about 4 weeks ahead of the game. She's incredible. We have been blessed by love. And we celebrate the love we share!

Tomorrow the girls have class parties (see the Valentine's being prepared above) and Brian and I have a date planned! Yahooooooooooo!! 

Love Strand 12/28

For Christmas, Anneli gave us this wonderful Amaryllis bulb. This is the first time I've ever cultivated an indoor bulb and what a delight it is as winter just won't let go! I love the promise of hope the bulb holds! Hope for beauty! Hope for spring!